Indecent Exposure

It's often painful, Christian life;
God sometimes cuts me with his knife.
-A knife that cuts into my heart
And opens out a shameful part:
A part that I will always try
To cover up (and just deny
That I would ever stoop so low):
That dreadful part - He puts on show!

Yet here I have to make a choice;
To hear - or just ignore - His voice
I'd so much rather stay the same
And save myself from guilt and shame
That justifying what I do
Becomes the obvious avenue.
And though this method will decrease
My sense of shame, I find no peace.

But when I choose to just give in
And own that what I did was sin
Not only does God help me live
My life for Him, but He forgives.
No matter what it is I've done,
My guilt is taken by his Son!
Yet still my Pride shouts, "Don't give in!"
For Pride would have me to drown in sin.