My Rant

Well, it's a New Year, and it's supposed to be a time of happiness and joy, and nursing your hangover. I'm not doing/feeling any of those though, and I have a feeling that 2004 is going to be the worst year on record. We'll see though.

After the events of last night I have to ask myself, can people really hide emotions as well as they appear to? Or is it just that they don't feel them as much as you'd imagine. How easy is it to pretend like nothings wrong, and is there some sort of technique to it? If so please let me know; I can't do it.

Been out this evening to Goblets (best bar i've ever been to!) to celebrate Heather's 19th birthday. Thanks to everyone who turned up; I know Heather really appreciated it. So Happy Birthday Heather!

Also, I'd like it to be noted that driving to a pub is such a horrible yet convenient thing to do. You stand at the bar and think "ooh what shall I have" and then think "arse, 'pint of coke please'".

I can't access this site from uni, so I'm gonna have to pay for a new host I think. Damn. I've got more time now... as most of you know my long term girlfriend is no longer my girlfriend, so I can do a bit of work to this site. I cant be bothered to do too much more now, I'm having a shitty christmas so I'll just leave you with this:

"My Immortal" by Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

18 April 2003: Right, I'm not even going to bother pretending that I am going to update this site. I'm lazy and this site seems like a lot of effort to a lazy man, nonetheless I will endeavour to make updates. I have put up the rants that visitors have sent in, and have also created a new part on religion, it's starting to look like I'm an atheist that preaches, but oh well! Oh, also gone is the main Teachers rant, it as never really in style with the website.

Hoping to add a "Things To Buy Me" page, detailing every material thing I could wish for <dribbles>. Just so you all know what I want when you win the Lottery!

Funny Things <-- I have over 100 different pages of jokes and funny (sometimes true) stories.

19 October 2002: Right, I'm serious this time, I want to keep this site up to date. DONT LAUGH! I've put some ppl's rants that they've contributed up in new section (visitors rants). I've also added some quotes to my Sayings page. Thank you to everyone who has contributed, keep the comments coming. Also, check out my newest personal page, the About Me section, it's a guide to a typical day in the life of me. Expect a slightly newer version by the end of november.

Just one last point, sorry to drag this out, but my Mini Rants reflect my personal views and opinions atthe time of writing, whilst they may not be my views/feelings at the moment, I have no intention of changing them, they were why this site was created, so leave 'em alone!

Just another last point, I have reset the counter on this website because I wanted to see hwo many ppl were actually coming to my site (I discovered a few months back that I had used the same counter on a different website so they were doubling up!) so no inane comments about how no one visits my site, ok?

30 April 2002: Hello! Look, I'm updating the site! NO, please don't fall off your chair, it *is* really happening, and I am really going to start updating this site. So, what happened I hear you ask, why haven't you touched your beloved website for almost a year? Well....

Last June I took my GCSE's, under revised and a little unprepared, most of my grades came in a little lower than my teachers or I expected. But it wasn't that much of a surprise really, lots of party's, a lack of enthusiasm for work, and loads of coursework soon added up. Coursework's such a waste of time isn't it? I suppose it gives you the chance of getting a few marks in case you sit in the exam and realise you completely left out half the syllabus when revising. Anyway, I did what was supposed to be a year long piece of coursework in three days and two nights <sleepless> which was impressive because I got an A. What wasn't impressive was that I had oral exams at the same time. Needless to say they didn't go brilliantly.

Summer came and I went on holiday, when I came back I had a whole month to waste. Which I did, quite successfully, I might add! Aside from that I also started going out with Heather, who, you'll be disappointed to note, I am still with, so sorry ladies, im not free yet. <Slaps round face, wakes up from dream and comes back to reality> Come to think about it, I should really be re-writing that Mini Rant on True Love :) So, what with starting college in September, a girlfriend and two jobs, you can see I didn't have much time. At all.

Now it's nearly exams, and I want to procrastinate, so here I am, procrastinating to the maximum by starting my site up again!